Can't say I didn't see it coming...

Well I got the news that come Monday I will no longer have a job. I must say when I got this news I wanted to cry & felt relieved at the same time, for those of you who may not know the store I work at has been struggling for a couple months and it has been a question of when not if we close. I am not looking forward to going into work today knowing that it is going to be sad and I hate sad!! I am an optimist sometimes to a fault, I do not want to look at the bad stuff and try very hard to keep it at bay!! I know that there are times this comes off as being flaky or dumb even but I always know the bad is there I just don't think it is good for my body, soul or mind to dwell on it. I speak to God and tell him my fears and ask for his help with them, then I let them go because what will happen will happen and I know with the strength of my friends & family we can get through it as we have shown to many times we are a strong group of people!! we love stronger then many families and embrace each other for who we are!! I love that about each and every one of you. I hear stories of families who don't talk and think to myself how sad that is!! I could not imagine nor would I want to a world without each of my in laws, cousins, aunts, uncles, mothers, father, brother in laws or my sisters!!! How sad that would be! Back to the subject. I now will have time to work on the list in my last post! that is my silver lining! I have many creative ideas that have been in my head that I now will have the time to get out of there so I can sleep!! I will start to look for a new job in a month and I know I am so lucky that Brian is working and I have the luxury to hold off.

Here is what I find hard about the blog, when do I stop?? I think I could ramble for a long time, maybe that is the answer when I feel I am rambling to just stop!! Like now...:)